I used to believe the word ‘impulsive’ came with such negative connotations, thinking that heat of the moment decisions and actions would lead to that feeling of regret the next day and the powerless reality that you can’t go back and change what you did. However impulsiveness doesn’t always need to be seen as a bad thing and in fact being more spontaneous and impulsive over the past month has made me a much happier person, the kind of person who feels as though she doesn’t need to excessively plan every bloody thing or have so much control over her life all the time.
I haven’t always been an impulsive person, in fact I used to over think things like crazy, to the point I’d talk myself out of doing or saying certain things because perhaps I had work the next day, or because I’d probably wake up with that feeling of regret in the morning rather than just living in the present and doing what I felt like in that moment. Back in school, impulsiveness wasn’t as easy as it is in the outside world, where you feel like there is less stigma with your actions and less people feeling like they have to be involved in the ‘gossip’ that is your life. Over the past month I’ve turned into the girl I’ve always wanted to be: less uptight, less planned and overall a more spontaneous and impulsive person. I’m not entirely sure if this is down to a sudden change in my life that happened not too long ago but I’ve started feeling a little more in the ‘fuck it’ mood and living in the moment rather than thinking off the past, and the future to be honest.
Getting older and growing into yourself definitely means you start to care less about what other people think about you. So if you want to be impulsive and send that text that you’ve had sitting in your drafts, do it, don’t be scared about how the other person will react, or whether they will even react at all. If you keep thinking about it the chances are it’s what your heart and head is telling you to do. If you want to make the first move with someone, do it, forget about the norm of guys talking to girls first, you are confident, and what’s the worst that can happen? You get rejected…and then you move on. Live in the moment more, stop thinking about what will happen in the future or whether you will regret buying the super leg lengthening checked trousers in a months time. Don’t fret about people’s opinions either, at the end of the day you are just living your best life and doing things that make you happy. I’ve given up feeling as though I have to explain all my impulsive decisions and actions to everyone, I want to keep some to myself but if they do ever come out I don’t want to feel like I have to explain myself, if I feel like my impulsive decisions help me and make me happy then that’s all that matters.
‘I’m learning to say yes, to be daring and spontaneous’
Impulsiveness and spontaneity definitely go hand in hand with one another and when I am spontaneous I feel the most relaxed and happy. I used to always feel the need to plan things at least a week, sometimes two weeks in advance (I was a bit of a control freak like that). Now I find it easier to go with the flow and to not always sit on the edge of my seat wondering if plans are going to happen or if they are going to fall through because I think I’ve come to be less bothered if I actually have to spend a night in the house…unless I’ve done my makeup; don’t ever cancel plans if a girls already done her makeup, you have no idea how much a bottle of foundation costs.
My friend asked me the other week to go on a spontaneous night out with her and her sisters; I was sitting watching a film in my pyjamas and thought to myself do you know what I really fancy going out…so I went. The old Caitlin would have probably felt anxious having only a few hours to get sorted but that night was actually one of the best nights out I’ve had in a while and left me feeling somewhat happier the next day as well as completely hangover free, meaning I could get on with my Sunday!
Impulse shopper on the other hand, is something I have been for a rather long time and I do tell myself regularly ‘you don’t need that’ yet I still go ahead and buy it, or something very similar and end up feeling guilty for approximately a day, two at the max. I’ve never been able to save. Ask my friends and my family. Saving money has never been my forte, I am not quite sure if that’s down to my impulsive personality or desire to always ‘treat myself’ but saving is just something that hasn’t ever been my strong point. These trousers in fact were a bit of a impulse shopping mishap, after telling myself I did not need a pair of checked trousers just because it was A/W and checked trousers would in fact complete my A/W wardrobe I went ahead and bought them anyway.
I think the key with being an impulsive shopper is to think long and hard about what you’d rather spend your money on, but if you see something and can’t stop thinking about it, just know you are going to end up getting it anyway…no matter how many talks you have with yourself.
What I’m Wearing:
MY IMPULSE SHOPPING PICK: